Well i have not been on here for a while but in serveral months i have noticed a change in myself.

I want your opionon it matters to me.

But the people i WAS friends with haunt me. Its like a gilt trip when ever i see them. The people that i was friends with left a mark in my heart and it is like aprat of them is now apart of me, good or bad.

Also when ever something not so big happens to me like finishing a great book or coming home from a concert ofa band i really like, its like i can see all fine details in everything i see that ignore in my everyday life. Its like a high. But it comes in random times.

Also i have this feeling in me that just wants to bust out and dance. but i hold it in and just let myself be quite and read a book. Tonight i got fustrated so i turned on sherwood and started dancing, badley. but thats okay. its like i was dacning every dirty look, mean thought or comment. i felt like i was shakeing off everything that worries me.

it felt good.

i am not sure who i am right now.
but i think it is coming soon.

what do you think?